Sitting on the couch in my pj’s playing on the computer. No makeup on, hair a mess. I look up and catch you staring at me. A huge blush seems to take over my entire body. I feel the warmth envelope me, and immediately cover my face with my hands, hoping to disappear behind them. It’s not so much the fact that you were staring at me as it was the way you were. The look on your face conveyed so much in that small moment in time.
I saw, in your eyes, the me you see. The me I wish I was. The me I want to be. Chestnut brown hair flowing in a gentle breeze, flawless skin and makeup. Stunning smile with perfect white teeth. Slender, petite features. The love for me expressed in your mesmerizing deep brown eyes fills me with such deeply overwhelming waves of love that I am unable to speak. The fact that you see the real me behind the reality of my damaged body is so incredible it can only be described as true love.
Those moments I catch you staring at me like that are priceless. No words could ever express the feelings you convey. No hugs or kisses could ever compare to the deep abiding love I see within you. The fact that you feel this way about me takes the breath out of my lungs. I have never felt this depth of love from another. It brings me to my knees in thankful prayer to my Higher Power. I have no words to explain how you make me feel. Not just about you or for you, but about myself.
You make me want to be the person you see. To spread my wings and grow. To love you as much and to make you feel as extraordinary as you make me feel. I want you to be proud of me and I want to treat you as exceptionally as you treat me. I know I fail daily, sometimes due to the crippled body I am forced to live in. But I want you to know that I do try. It may take me longer and I may have to put forth more effort, but I do try.
I have never felt this way for anyone before. This is all new territory for me and you teach me so much on a daily basis. I never knew what love was until I met you. I am posting this not to embarrass you but to tell the world how special you are and to let others know that true love still exists and good men are still out there. I love you.
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